Well I only worked till like 3 30 today...The manager said we could take off early today...I was actually glad that we could.  I am just wore out from having to check the dates on the food and having to go back and forth on the ladder today...I hate being so short.  Normally I just use the step ladder but today I had to be on the bigger one....I am always scared I am going to loose my balance, and fall, and rehurt my knee.  I really do not want to have to go through surgery again that is for sure.

I leave for my Aunts house tomorrow.  I am kinda excited about going there for the weekend.  It gets me away from the house and the drama here for a few day.  It also gives me a chance to kinda recharge myself and everything and be able to rest for work the next week. 

I am glad that I haven't been on register though...I would actually rather do the shelf stripping then being on the register.  Mostly because we just stand there and it gets so boring when its slow...

Well today was a long day at work.  I worked 9 to 6.  I got annoyed with some of the people that I work with.  I spent over 6 hours taking sparkling water off the shelf because it was outdated.  If someone had drank that then got sick we could have got sued.  It takes a few min to make sure you rotate a product...BUT noooo people can't do that and make sure things are up to date...It was just annoying that I had to spend all that time trying to make sure all the product was in the right space....We were supposed to be done with the pantry today, but we still aren't done...I know the store manager is going to yell at us and be mad that we are still working in the same section.  We are supposed to be in another area already...sigh...

Saturday I am going to my Aunts for the weekend.  :)  I am going to do my taxes and we maybe going to the movies...but im not sure yet.  I think I am going to take my Aunt out to lunch as a thank you and to do something nice. 

I get my check tomorrow! YAY!!! I can't wait to find out how much I made!..

I am happy that Mike is going to Top me again.  I know I have to continue to talk to him about how i am feeling and what I want and what I am thinking....I know it is very important to communicate.  I have learned so much in the past few weeks.  

Well this weekend went ok...Kinda got mad at my sister for a few things though.  I am over it now...I had to work 9 to 3 today.  It went pretty fast thankfully.  I am working those hours till like Thursday and then I switch to 9 to 6.  Just means a lot more hours and more money that I can get saved up...I have so much that needs to get paid and I really need to just buckle it down and get things paid for and then save up for some new clothes and maybe see about getting a new phone that actually has a contract with insurance on the phone...Cause I know I will end up messing the phone up some how or flushing it down the toilet..  I have already flushed 2 phones and washed one as well...I swear I am accident prone and I am always losing things.  If my head wasn't attached it would be lost too. LOL!!! 


I was at work and my sugar really dropped to the point I felt like I was going to pass out...One of the girls I work with is diabetic and took my sugar and it was like 84 and they made me eat some candy and drink a soda to get it back up to where it was supposed to be at.  I don't want to go thru what Mike or my Mom goes through for them being diabetic.  


I got the new Braking Dawn movie!  I haven't watched it yet my sister wants to watch all the movies before we watch that one...I told her that was fine and that I didn't mind doing that.  I  can't wait to watch it...I hope it is as good as the book.  One of the girls I work with said it was so so.  We will see though.

Well my store manager told us we have to work 9 hours now.  So now I will be getting even more hours then what I already have.  Which is actually good.  I just know I am going to be very tired.  But I really need the money so I can get this stuff done and over with.  I am happy that I am getting the hours though.  I just hope that I can do it and not get way too tired or get frustrated with going slow or not getting things done right the way I want them.  I am glad that I have my job though.  Mostly because it does get me out of the house.  

I love having my laptop now.  I don't have to wait till Mom or my sister aren't on it anymore, and I like that I can do my own thing online and not have to worry that they will see what I am doing or what I am writing.  I missed having my own privacy and being able to do my own thing with my computer and getting the pictures that I want and not worry that Dad will see them.  Or reading the stories that I write.  

Well today I worked 9 to 3.  I learned how to strip the shelves and I will be doing that for the rest of the week.  I got frustrated when I first started and I had to call the manager that was in charge of the project like 5 different times to help  me out.  I need to be more patient with myself, and know that sometimes things just take time to get.  I liked getting out at 3 though.  I had the rest of the day to do what I want, and that was great I think.  Tomorrow we are doing a different department.  I hope it goes just as fast as today went.  

 I got my battery for my laptop today!  I have it charging up right now! Now if only I would listen more to people...I am trying to listen more and to communicate with what I want.  It takes awhile and it isn't going to change and I know that.  I just hope that I can keep doing better with doing what I am working on.

I am working today for like 4 hours and 15 min.  I hope they don't have me on register the whole time.  It goes so slow when I am just doing that.  I like when they give up little projects to do.  Mainly cause I am learning something new to do.  I like being able to learn new things and that means I can fill in for other jobs and get more hours.  I really like working.  Mostly because it gets me out of my house and the drama that goes on around here.  And I also like the people I work with.  They are pretty nice and we all talk about things whenever we are able to.  I have like most of them on my facebook and they all play the games on there as well. 

I am really thinking about taking a few college class.  I want to think about taking classes for photography, or writing, or becoming a teacher, but I am not sure yet what I want to do.  I want to get the bankruptcy done and the divorce done and then maybe I can really think about going back to school and finding out all the information about the fees and classes that I can take.  

Well today I worked for four hours.  It went pretty good.  My manager wouldn't make her mind up about where she wants me to put things at.  It went pretty fast actually So that was good.  The next two weeks are going to be good weeks...I am working like 30 hours each week!!!!  So my paychecks should be pretty good.  I really need to get my part paid for the bankruptcy so I can get my divorce done already.  And I still have to pay my brother the money I owe him. 

I am doing pretty good. :)  Finally sleeping a lot better and finally eating better. :)

My doctor changed my depression meds.  I am on Lexapro and it gives me dry mouth not sure if it is really working yet.  She said it may take about a month or two before I see any difference.  I hope it works with my moods and panic attacks.