Spanking and more!

Today I got a reminder spanking.  More about that later.  I was about to head upstairs to my sister's room to do my spanking since my Dad was around.  He don't know that I have a Top, and to be honest I don't want him to know.  Well my Dad saw that I was getting ready to go upstairs, and I had to quickly hide my bath brush behind my back.  He made a comment about phone sex and I swear my face turned two shades of bright red.  I quickly said nooooooooooo, and then continued to go upstairs.  I received 50 hard swats.  Let me tell you that thing hurts!  I used to be able to handle 50 like no problem, but since I haven't had a Top for the past few months it will take time to get to where I once was.  After the spanking I had to sit on the hard floor.  This makes it hurt more to be honest.  I was not being punished, (Which if you knew how I am you would know that it is AMAZING that I am not in trouble!!!) but it was a reminder to behave during my healing time after my surgery.  Since I will not be spanked a record will be kept of how I behaved and I will receive any punishment spanking after I am better.

I am really trying to be good, and show that I am a good girl...Now don't get me wrong it is hard.  And I am sure I WILL mess up sooner or later!  And when that time comes I am sure I will be sorry and pleading!

Now on to other things.  Today Mom and I did laundry where I accidentally slipped on water that had spilled on the floor.  I am okay!  I have almost everything ready for when I have my surgery on Wednesday!  I still have a few little things to do, and I know I will have to go to bed semi early since I have to be at the hospital at 9:30 sharp!  I already know I am going to be one tired little girl!  But I am hoping I will be able to watch my shows.

I am really thinking of not going back to work at Kmart at all.  I don't like how I am being treated there...And to top it off my hours are being cut to 15 hours!!! How can anyone live off that I have no idea.  They hired like 20 new people and I think that is wrong....I want to have another job before I quit, but we will see what happens after my 2 weeks of being off.  I do know it will be hard to find a job when I have 8 weeks of being on crutches.  But I will find something within the 8 weeks that is for sure! 

I am doing pretty good.  Mike is going to Top me again! :)  I am happy he going to be able to Top me again.  He has this way of making me listen to how he wants me to act.  I like the rules he gives me and I really try to follow them.  I don't like getting into trouble.  I rather have someone be proud of me then be disappointed in me.   

I am still getting ready for my surgery.  I go to the doctor tomorrow for pretesting.  Meaning they will do an EKG for my heart.  I have had these test before and did fine during them.  I just don't like being in the doctors office.

Work is going okay.  We are having a contest about enrollment cards.  The winner gets a pizza party which is really cool.  I hope my team wins.  Right now I have 24 enrollments.  So I am really going to try to get people signed up for the cards.  I am happy that I am on A's team and not M's.  More later!

Surgery...again...and other updates!

Well I found out last week that I have to have surgery...AGAIN!  My cartledge in my knee has a little round hole so its bone against bone.  So I am having surgery on it to try and shrink the hole more.  It already went down an inch since I last had the surgery two years ago.  Yes I am freaked out about going thru all this surgery again and having the tube down my throat, but at least I have my family especially my Mom and my friends to get me thru it.  I will have to be on crutches for 8 weeks ago.  That's two months!!!!When I am at work all I will be able to do is sit on a stool and ring people up.  So not looking forward to that one!

M is back online, and I get to talk and text him again!! I totally missed being able to talk to him about things.  He has become like a major best friend to me.  I know him and I had our ups and downs, but I am so happy him and I are friends!  He always has a way of making me laugh and be able to smile.  Also he has a way of making me listen to what he says!  He is a totally AWESOME person I think!!

Work is going ok.  I don't like the idea of taking a week and a half off of work.  Even though my hours right now really suck I like working there most of the time.  But I think after my 8 weeks of being on crutches I may look into finding a new job where I will have more hours, and possibly actually be able to get raises.  Cause now I am still making 7.25 an hour and that is what I started out when I was first hired.  And with these doctor bills, and having to payback my ex I am gonna need the money.  

Mom is home now.  She went with my Aunts for the week for a vacation.  She needed the time to get away, but I sure missed her.  She missed us as well.  I am glad that she had fun, but I am happy she is back home.  I tried to stay on top of all the dishes and keeping the house clean.  I think I did a pretty good job.  Amb didn't really help as much as I wished she did.  Then again it is Amb...I should be used to it by now.  I just wished she would grow up a little more and be more helpful and do stuff around the house.  It isn't fair to let or expect Mom to do everything around the house.  I try to help as much as possible, and I feel that I should help more, but Mom is always telling me to sit down and rest my knee.

Dang this is a long post for me!!  More later!

Today is my 31 birthday.  I have the day off from work.  YAY!  I also have tomorrow off.  

We had to do the laundry today.  That went pretty good.  Then when we got home my sister made a big deal about me having a hair tie in my hair well she wanted it.  So I took it out of my hair and threw it towards where she was sitting.  Well the dog got it so I had to go get some food to get it away from him.  You would think she would give it to me for my birthday, but nope.  She is supposed to clean out my car since I bought her a camera for her when she was with her friend C.  Well she still hasn't cleaned it.  So I am not going to do anything for her now.  I hate that she thinks everything should be handed to her.  I feel like I am being used by her, and I do NOT like it at all.  

I am waiting to get my presant from my Mom and Dad till July.  Since they are on disability they live paycheck to paycheck.  I totally understand that and I am fine with it.  

I was hoping that I would be with Rob for this birthday, but he won't even call me back when I call or leave messages.  So I am thinking he don't want to be friends, and prolly found someone new.  It sucks because I really liked him, and his little girls.  I guess he didn't feel the same about me...His loss I guess.  It still sucks tho!

Just a really bad few days...

The last few days have been total hell...

First when I was walking my knee went one way and the rest of my leg went the other.  So I thought maybe I twisted my knee.  I went to my Doctor and she sent me to a Specialist.  The same doctor that did my surgery.  He thinks I may have messed up my graph.  And if I did that...it means surgery...again...  I go for an MRI June 21.  Hopefully I just twisted it...I am trying to stay positive, but that is kinda hard to do.

I go to tell E what is going on and she don't answer me back.  Here lately I say anything to her and I don't get an answer.  She is saying I forgot Mother's day and her birthday.  I sent her messages both days.  So now she is mad at me.  I guess she wants nothing to do with me.  So I guess I will stop trying to tell her what is going on with me and my leg.  When I told her she didn't say one word about it...She went into basically saying she is pissed at me.  So like I said I will just keep how I feel to myself.

I now will have major restrictions at work.  No walking, standing, climbing ladders, crouching, or squatting.  This goes on till July 2.  So no garden shop for me.  Which really sucks because I like it out there.  Its nice and quiet and I don't have to put up with other peoples bull crap...  All I can do is be on register with a stool.  Fun...NOT...I guess I will get somewhat of a brake now.  But I like getting different jobs at work done.  I feel a sense of accomplishment when I complete a job.

Then I got a letter from my lawyer saying that Matt's lawyer wants me to pay Matt 8% interest...yeah that is sooo not going to happen.  I hardly have the money to pay him as it is.  And he wants even more money.  How the hell is that fair?  And apparently it don't matter if I need the money for food and gas for my car.  And I need the money even more for the doctor bills I will be getting.  I wish he would just keel over.  Then I wouldn't have to pay him the money.  I know that is mean of me to say, but the jackass has put me through a lot of shit and has screwed me on the way I see people anymore.

One good thing...My bankruptcy is finished!!! FINALLY!  Now if all this other stuff would work out I will be happier...But with my luck it will just end up being worse... Sigh...

Gibbs slapping...

Today was one of those days where I just wanna "Gibbs" slap a few people.  I went in to work at 6:45 this morning.  Now that didn't really bother me.  I can get a lot done in the morning when its quiet.  After I got the watering done for the flowers and plants I started getting everything that is short or outdated for the meds in the HBA department since I didn't know when the last time people have gone threw them.  Well my store manager comes up and tells me to do repacks for that department.  I said ok.  It took forever to just get the cart to even do what I was told to do.  I didn't even really make a dent in how much needed to be put away.  Also it didn't help that we had tons of customers going through garden shop today that I had to help, or ring up.

Then when I had to go to the restroom my manager about had a fit.  Well I am sorry that I had a normal body function that I needed to take care of.  

Then I find out that K a girl I work with that is not all there went off on my friend H about how I don't do anything around the store, and that I am apparently always leaving my area.  And that is total bull crap.  She is the one that don't check dates when she puts the products on the shelf.  Because of her everyone else has to go over her work that she does.  To me if we have to go over and correct her stuff then she should be on register only instead, then we don't have to redo everything she does, because it is just a waste of time.  I get that she has mental problems and everything, but somethings a child could understand.  I am to the point I am really thinking about looking for a new job, because if this keeps up I WILL be leaving.  I really don't need to be talked about behind my back, and then have the person act all sweet and nice to me like they never said stuff about me.  It is ridiculous.

Today went good.  I am working out in the garden shop again this year.  I love being able to go outside and work.  It is such a nice day today.  Finally warm weather is here!! Now I will end up complaining that it is too hot lol.

My sister is going to her friends house for a few days.  I am glad that is able to get away for a little bit.  Then it will be really quiet at the house.  

My Mom is doing good.  She is still sleeping a lot.  The doctor said that is the best thing for her.  She still has to get tons of fluids as well.  So I hope it keeps healing up for her.  

I have been trying to help as much as possible.  I have been doing dishes for Mom.  It has been crazy cause when I get off work, I am so tired of standing that I just want to sit down and rest my feet.  When anyone ask Amber to help she gives everyone a huge attitude, so we just stopped asking her to help.  Oh well nothing I can really do to change her with things.