Today is my 31 birthday.  I have the day off from work.  YAY!  I also have tomorrow off.  

We had to do the laundry today.  That went pretty good.  Then when we got home my sister made a big deal about me having a hair tie in my hair well she wanted it.  So I took it out of my hair and threw it towards where she was sitting.  Well the dog got it so I had to go get some food to get it away from him.  You would think she would give it to me for my birthday, but nope.  She is supposed to clean out my car since I bought her a camera for her when she was with her friend C.  Well she still hasn't cleaned it.  So I am not going to do anything for her now.  I hate that she thinks everything should be handed to her.  I feel like I am being used by her, and I do NOT like it at all.  

I am waiting to get my presant from my Mom and Dad till July.  Since they are on disability they live paycheck to paycheck.  I totally understand that and I am fine with it.  

I was hoping that I would be with Rob for this birthday, but he won't even call me back when I call or leave messages.  So I am thinking he don't want to be friends, and prolly found someone new.  It sucks because I really liked him, and his little girls.  I guess he didn't feel the same about me...His loss I guess.  It still sucks tho!

Just a really bad few days...

The last few days have been total hell...

First when I was walking my knee went one way and the rest of my leg went the other.  So I thought maybe I twisted my knee.  I went to my Doctor and she sent me to a Specialist.  The same doctor that did my surgery.  He thinks I may have messed up my graph.  And if I did that...it means surgery...again...  I go for an MRI June 21.  Hopefully I just twisted it...I am trying to stay positive, but that is kinda hard to do.

I go to tell E what is going on and she don't answer me back.  Here lately I say anything to her and I don't get an answer.  She is saying I forgot Mother's day and her birthday.  I sent her messages both days.  So now she is mad at me.  I guess she wants nothing to do with me.  So I guess I will stop trying to tell her what is going on with me and my leg.  When I told her she didn't say one word about it...She went into basically saying she is pissed at me.  So like I said I will just keep how I feel to myself.

I now will have major restrictions at work.  No walking, standing, climbing ladders, crouching, or squatting.  This goes on till July 2.  So no garden shop for me.  Which really sucks because I like it out there.  Its nice and quiet and I don't have to put up with other peoples bull crap...  All I can do is be on register with a stool.  Fun...NOT...I guess I will get somewhat of a brake now.  But I like getting different jobs at work done.  I feel a sense of accomplishment when I complete a job.

Then I got a letter from my lawyer saying that Matt's lawyer wants me to pay Matt 8% interest...yeah that is sooo not going to happen.  I hardly have the money to pay him as it is.  And he wants even more money.  How the hell is that fair?  And apparently it don't matter if I need the money for food and gas for my car.  And I need the money even more for the doctor bills I will be getting.  I wish he would just keel over.  Then I wouldn't have to pay him the money.  I know that is mean of me to say, but the jackass has put me through a lot of shit and has screwed me on the way I see people anymore.

One good thing...My bankruptcy is finished!!! FINALLY!  Now if all this other stuff would work out I will be happier...But with my luck it will just end up being worse... Sigh...

Gibbs slapping...

Today was one of those days where I just wanna "Gibbs" slap a few people.  I went in to work at 6:45 this morning.  Now that didn't really bother me.  I can get a lot done in the morning when its quiet.  After I got the watering done for the flowers and plants I started getting everything that is short or outdated for the meds in the HBA department since I didn't know when the last time people have gone threw them.  Well my store manager comes up and tells me to do repacks for that department.  I said ok.  It took forever to just get the cart to even do what I was told to do.  I didn't even really make a dent in how much needed to be put away.  Also it didn't help that we had tons of customers going through garden shop today that I had to help, or ring up.

Then when I had to go to the restroom my manager about had a fit.  Well I am sorry that I had a normal body function that I needed to take care of.  

Then I find out that K a girl I work with that is not all there went off on my friend H about how I don't do anything around the store, and that I am apparently always leaving my area.  And that is total bull crap.  She is the one that don't check dates when she puts the products on the shelf.  Because of her everyone else has to go over her work that she does.  To me if we have to go over and correct her stuff then she should be on register only instead, then we don't have to redo everything she does, because it is just a waste of time.  I get that she has mental problems and everything, but somethings a child could understand.  I am to the point I am really thinking about looking for a new job, because if this keeps up I WILL be leaving.  I really don't need to be talked about behind my back, and then have the person act all sweet and nice to me like they never said stuff about me.  It is ridiculous.

Today went good.  I am working out in the garden shop again this year.  I love being able to go outside and work.  It is such a nice day today.  Finally warm weather is here!! Now I will end up complaining that it is too hot lol.

My sister is going to her friends house for a few days.  I am glad that is able to get away for a little bit.  Then it will be really quiet at the house.  

My Mom is doing good.  She is still sleeping a lot.  The doctor said that is the best thing for her.  She still has to get tons of fluids as well.  So I hope it keeps healing up for her.  

I have been trying to help as much as possible.  I have been doing dishes for Mom.  It has been crazy cause when I get off work, I am so tired of standing that I just want to sit down and rest my feet.  When anyone ask Amber to help she gives everyone a huge attitude, so we just stopped asking her to help.  Oh well nothing I can really do to change her with things.

Well my Mom is doing pretty good...She goes back to the doctor on the 30th.  Hopefully he tells us good things.  The thing in her lip was just full of fluid, so nothing serious which I am so thankful to hear.

Our washer broke down so now we have to go to the laundry mat to get our clothes washed...It is so boring there and it cost so much to wash clothes there.  Hopefully we can get a new washer soon.  

Rob and I are still friends.  I miss seeing him and his girls, but my Mom comes first to me.  And I want to help her as much as I can. I just hope things will get better for him, and that we may get a chance to be back as boyfriend/girlfriend again, but I am not sure. 

Mom is back home!

Well Mom is back home from having her surgery.  She is still having a lot of pain, but it don't seem to be bothering her as much.  She has been sleeping a lot, but she seems to be doing good.  I am glad we are back home.  I hope we both can catch up on sleep tonight.  Her lip is really big.  The doctor sent it to get testing and to see what it was.  We won't know anything for about a week.  Ugh I hate waiting and trying to be patient.  The dogs really missed Mom they wanted to jump all over her, but now they are pretty much being quiet and laying close to her.  Its like they are trying to keep an eye on her as well.  Well Oscar is just getting into everything there is so he can get a treat.  Rolling my eyes here lol.  

I am off work tomorrow so I plan on making sure things are done before I have to go back to work on Monday.  I hate the idea of not being her to help take care of Mom.  Cause I know how Amber is.  And I know Dad will be in his room like always....

There are times I just don't understand Amber tho.  It's like everything has to be done when she wants it...sigh...

Well I worked this morning from 4 to 8.  It went okay, but I was so annoyed with K.  She did my signs for me and that was nice of her, but she could have at least put them in order so it would be easier for me to get my signs done faster.  It just got annoying that I couldn't get things done as fast as normal as I could.  Oh well nothing I can do about it now.

Then I found out Mom has to have surgery next Friday on her neck.  I have like 5 days in a roll off so when she is in the hospital I am going to end up staying with her at the hospital so she has someone there to help and keep an eye on her.  I am scared about it all.  At least with me being there I can keep an eye on her.