New Years Resolutions...

1 Loose about 50 pounds by summer (i wanna be under 200 pounds before my birthday) 
2 Be nicer to my sister and actually spend time with her
 3 get a new job.  Cause lets face it I hate Kmart...
4 Personal.  Sorry not gonna go into this one...
 5 Get a new bed for my room cause I hate the bed I have now.
 6 TO STOP GETTING HURT.  I have spent enough time at doctor offices and in the Er. 
7  Another kinda personal one....


I just hope 2014 turns out better then this year did...

Crazy month...

So this month has been pretty crazy for me and my family. First my Mom goes to the hospital and ends up being admitted for four days then goes home for four days, and then end up being admitted again for another four days. She has diverticulitis...Basically she had too much fiber in her diet, and now she is on a very light fiber diet. She is finally doing a little better, but still is having stomach problems.

Then this week my Dad ended up going to the ER and being admitted on Monday afternoon. He got home on Friday. However he is now on oxygen all the time now. So I have been helping my Mom to make sure he is ok since he has only so far that his oxygen hose will go. Plus he is fighting a cold right now as well.

Also I have a lot more hours at work for this week and next week since Christmas will be here soon. I work in retail so this is our busiest time of year.  So I will blog when I am able to...

Life is just crazy

Life has just been nuts the past few months since my surgery.  I am back at work.  We ended up loosing our medical insurance since it didn't go by what Obama says.  So stupid I think..  I am looking for a new job.  I finally have gottin sick and tired of how I am treated there.  So it is diffidently time for a change.  

The twins are doing great!  So are the older boys.  I am excited about seeing them in two weeks for our family Thanksgiving.  Since I have to work that day we are celebrating a different day.  Hopefully I can get the Christmas list for the older boys so I can finish the Christmas shopping.  I am starting that next week when I get my next check.  

I am doing ok physically since my surgery.  I just have to take it slower now.  I am still in physical therapy to build up more strength in my knee.  It just takes a lot of time.  Maybe by January I won't have to go anymore.  We will see what happens.  

Mom has been in the hospital twice now.  She has to totally change her diet.  She really hates that.  So I have been doing pretty much everything around the house.  I am getting to the point that I am really ready to go and see S in Febuary...I just need that time with my best friend...

Well gotta go and help with supper...I will try to write more later...

I have a lot of news and things to say today.  So I will just get right to it.  I went to the doctor last Thursday.  I am now able to put weight on my left leg...YAY!  I still have to use my crutches to walk because of not being able to put any weight on my leg.  It is sore when I over do it with walking.  I can only sit at work.  I go back to see him in a month.  

I talked to Kmart about it and I am waiting to find out if there is anything that I can do.  I am really hoping that they have something that I will be able to do.  I need to be able to start making money so I can pay all these medical bills.  It is going to take me forever to pay things off.

Physical therapy went good.  I have good range of motion for bending my knee.  The strength in my is NOT really good.  So I am working on that.  I have to do my exercises 3 times a day.  There are 4 of them that I have to do.  I go back in a week for therapy mostly cause my insurance is at its limit.  So it means more work for me at home.  I know I can do it.  I also know that it is going to hurt that is for sure!

Things around here are okay.  There have been some major blow outs between my parents and Amb.  I am just tired of all the fighting and yelling.  They all need to grow up and just deal with problems as adults.

9 more days till the doctor visit!

I go to see the doctor in about 9 days.  Hopefully he tells me I am done with crutches.  I also hope I am able to go back to work.  I have so many bills that need to be paid.  I also need to pay my ex as well.  I am hoping that I will get the hours I need at work.  If I don't I am going to have to diffidently find a new job.  Plus I really want to go back to college and get my degree in teaching.  I think I would be a really good teacher.

I have two spankings coming to me for acting up.  I am not sure how many I will end up getting.  I am sure it will be enough to make me to remember to behave. 

My sister is really getting to be annoying at times.  She will sit there and watch tv at night when I am trying to go to sleep, and if you ask her to turn the sound down she about bites your head off.  So it is like you have to walk on egg shells around her so she don't go off.  Her and Dad really do not get along at all.  He is always saying mean things to her and she blows up at him.  Both of them need to grow up I think.

Court today...

Today I had court for my divorce.  Mom and I got there sat down and in comes the ex...  You would think he would sit as far as possible from us right?  Heck no!  He had to sit 3 seats away from Mom...  I mean really?  We got divorced.  Now tell me why in the world would I want to hear about everything that is going on in your life.  Honestly I didn't even want to talk to him. 

So he kept talking and finally my lawyer came out to talk to me about what was going to happen about the whole interest.  So if I don't pay the money I owe him 8% interest will be added each year that it is not paid.  It don't even matter that I can't work for 8 well 7 weeks now.  Then we went in the court room and the judge decreed that i would have 45 days to pay until i will be charged interest.  Then we were done in the court room.  

We had to wait to sign a paper about the interest.  So we went back in the waiting room where he had to sit near us AGAIN, and talk more about his life.  I got so annoyed that I picked up a magazine and tried to read it thinking that he would take the hint.  He didn't take the hint of course and continued talking.  My Mom got so annoyed that she got up and went to the restroom so she wouldn't punch him.  I was good thou.  I tried my best to just ignore him.  When I really just wanted to yell at him to go away, or even hit him, but I knew if I did that I would be in major trouble with Mike.  Now that I really did not want to happen.

So I am FINALLY divorced!!! I am so happy it is all finished!  

In other news...I turned in an application for being a teacher's aid at a Daycare.  Hopefully I get the job.  I am so ready for a change.  I may still have to work at Kmart for a few weeks because of my insurance, but I get the job I will just have to have Kmart adjust what my work hours are and if they don't then I will just quit.  I would rather work at a place that I know I am making a difference then at a place where I am treated horribly.

Mom is doing good.  I really have to rely on her a lot of things right now.  I do wish I was able to do more myself, but that time will come.  It did feel good to be outside though that is for sure!  I am hoping that I will be able to sit on the swing soon, but that will come in time as well.  I just have to be patient.  Which is not my strongest quality about myself and I know that.  So I am trying to be patient about everything, and not get too annoyed.

My pain level has went down a lot.  So that is a good thing.  So now instead of every 5 hours I am taking my medication every 6 hours.  I hope soon that I will only have to take it as needed.  I have to see the doctor next Thursday for my check up.  I hope he will give me good news!  Well I am gonna go watch t.v. for awhile.  I will write more soon!!

How I am doing

I am doing good today.  I still have a lot of pain at times in my knee.  That is to be expected with having surgery just a few days ago.  I am doing okay with the pain medication, however it makes me very sleepy after I take it.  I do say I hate having to sleep so much.  A lot of times I feel like I am missing things going on because of sleeping.  I know it is a way for my body to heal though, and that is why I need the sleep so much.  

When I'm not asleep I spend a lot of time watching my favorite shows on tv.  Of course I am online playing on my Facebook.  Also I try and read some of my books from the library.  I tried to watch some movies from there, but I just couldn't really get into watching them.  I have also been playing my 3DS.  Right now its on the charger since I been playing it so much.

Mom has been really helping me a lot.  Since the bathroom is so small someone has to be in there to help me.  Plus Mom gets my food or me and if I need anything else.  She also keeps track of all my medication and the times I need to take them.  I would forget when to take them if it was up to me.  We keep an alarm on my phone to remind us when I need to take the pain medication so I take it on time, and not miss a dose.  That way I am not always in pain. Dad helps when he can.  Amber helps me when she is awake, but at times she acts like its a bother to help me.  

My best friend Steph sent me a build a bear teddy bear.  She thought it would cheer me up.  It totally made me smile when I got it.  She got it as a late Christmas present and birthday present to me.  She just deiced to send it now to make me smile, and it did.

Mike is still my Top during my healing.  He is keeping track of if I mess up so I will get my punishments later on when I am not on crutches, and in pain.  Which is very nice I think of him to wait.  Also its very thoughtful.  He checks to see how I am doing a couple times during the day.  Mostly to make sure I don't need any thing and that I am doing okay.  I think it is very sweet.  Latte also checks to see how I am doing.  I think she is a great friend and very sweet as well...

Well I am getting a little tired so I am going to take a nap...I will write more later!