Well I worked today..and now im sick...dont really feel like writing in my journal today...I will say that I am worried about Mike and being in the path of the hurricane...Hope he and my other friends stay safe!

off today gonna rest my throat hurts

Work went pretty good today.  I have to work 8 and a half hours tomorrow.  I am hoping that I don't have to be on the register the whole time.  I hope I get to at least be on the floor some.  I love working on the floor and doing things there. 

I have Sunday off.  I will be getting my hair dyed and cut.  I can't wait. 

I got all the bankruptcy course finished.  Thank God for that.  I hated having to sit here and read it all....  Now I just have to sign the papers for it.  I think I am doing that on Thursday the 8.  I just want to get all this done and over with.

Work went good today.  I had to go in at 9 since Mom had to go to court and speak to the lawyer about the bill.   Now she has to go back in January for it.  They think things will change for her.  But I know Mom will go in and say nothing changed and then they will keep making her go back.  It is very annoying that they do that.

I got the papers for my bankruptcy so I have to read through them all get a few things around and call for an appointment.  Hopefully I can go in and not have to do it when Matt does it.  Really don't want to have to see him unless I have to...

I am still working 6 days a week.  So here lately I am getting 30 hours and more.  So that is good. :)

Just wanna cry..

I had an okay day at work.  Only had to work 4 hours.  And tomorrow I am off.

I have to go to court for the Lot Rent.  I missed one of the days that I was suppossed to see the lawyer about the rent.  I never got a notice in the mail.  So now I am in contempt of court.  So I am really nervous about what is going to go on. 


I am really upset with this whole thing with Mike.  Everything was going good.  And then when I had a bad day I text him and told him about it and he never got the text.  Then he read it later on Fet about my bad day then told me him and I was done.  My heart is totally braking over all this.  I know I sent him the text.  I never got a thing from him.  I have been trying to talk to him about this all, but he won't even give me a chance to talk about it all.  Then when I got cussed I said a few bad words.  And now he don't want anything to do with me.  I love him a lot and want us to be together.  I am happy when him and I are talking.  Right now I don't want to eat.  I don't want to go to work.  I don't want to do anything but cry and sleep.  I am trying to give him time and maybe he will come around.  I don't want to loose hope...But it is really getting hard.

Work went good I worked a 9 hour shift.  My feel are really hurting.  I work tomorrow but its only 4 hours so that is good.

Mike still won't talk to me and listen to what I have to say.  It really is braking my heart.  I am hardly sleeping and eating right now.  I just wish he would listen to me...sigh

Work went good.  Still not feeling the best.  I am still having trouble eating and keeping it down...I dont really feel like writing right now... :(

I have today off work.  I cried myself to sleep last night and then woke up crying...He won't even talk to me or give me a chance.  I text him and didnt get a word from him...My heart feels like some one riped it out and stabbed it with a knife and threw it away.  I can't eat.  I tried to eat lunch and I just threw it up.  I just dont understand.  I tried to tell him that I was texting him and he didnt want to listen to me at all. :( I love him and want him and I to be together.  I don't want to do anything.  I want to curl up in a ball and just lay there.  I hate being me.  Wish i wasnt even around anymore...

Work went a lot better today.  I ended up getting the out dates and short dates and rearranged the cart for the candy.  Thank God I have tomorrow off work.

Bowling went pretty good.  Well the first game did.  I got a  116 then got a 62 then a 90.  Hopefully next week goes even better.

Then I get home and had a message from Mike.  He was saying I wasn't communicating and said a few other things as well.  I sent him quite a few text and got nothing back from him.  And now he won't even talk to me.  It is all a big misunderstanding and he won't let me even talk to him about what happined.  I love him and I want him and I to be in a relationship.  He won't even talk to me.  It hurts that he wont talk to me about what is going on.  I wish he would.  People talk through their problems and he won't give me the chance to.  *sigh* :( I just want to lay in my bed and cry and never stop.  :(   I don't understand why he won't even hear me out about everything.  I mean I have been sending text after text and got nothing back and I don't understand what is going on....

I had to work today.  Things started off ok.  Then they just went down hill.  We had the LP Supervisor in today.  Then we are going to have corp in tomorrow.  So I ended up having to go through all the pantry and find all the outdated food and the food that will be outdated soon.  Then when I went to get a new package for a table cloth I had to ask about and the girl I asked got all smart.  So I just went and figured it out myself. 

I am working tomorrow I just hope the day goes better then today.  I hate when I have bad days.  I just get really down.

Amber had her interview.  She is waiting to find out if she got the job or not.  I have mixed feelings about it.  I mean I want her to have a job and be able to get money for her stuff and everything.  Then again I don't want to work with her...

I am so glad I am bowling tomorrow.  It gets me out of the house and a way to have fun.

Well Mom had her test done.  Things came out really good.  She dont have diatickulites or pancratitus anymore.  So that is good.  Her colon is healthy.  So that is good.  I am just happy that the test is done. 

Amber has an interview tomorrow at K mart...This is going to be interesting.  I am just hoping that things work out and don't go nuts with work.

I wish my Dad would learn to be happy and stop taking his bad moods out on us and making us feel like we are nothing and we don't know anything.  It really makes me annoyed when he acts like this.  He always has an attatude about things.

Danny has been using their car to go back and forth to work,  So my parents are using my car.  My Dad is making a big deal about me putting gas in my car.  When I do that he always uses it and then lets it go down to empty and then goes off cause i don't have the money to put more gas in it.  It just really drives me nuts.

Well I worked today.  It went pretty good.  I was on the cash register most of the time. 

I went to the library to get a few books and movies and a game for tomorrow.  I have the day off and my Mom has to go to the hospital for a test to be done on her.  So I am going to be spending the time there while she is having the test done. 

It is so cold in my house.  We had the furnace on and it was just blowing cold air.  I hope Dad can get it fixed soon so it's not cold.  I am so ready for summer already and its not even winter yet.  LOL.  Right now I have sweats on and my Yankee blanket on.  Hopefully I start getting warm.

Mike and I are doing good.  I like how our relationship is going right now.  Just wished I lived closer to him.    

Well I got into major trouble with Mike, and was grounded from the computer until today.  I totally know that I need to make sure my alarm is on and everything so I don't get into trouble like this again.  I got spanked and also grounded and also had to do 200 rainbow lines.  I almost didn't get my lines done.  So happy I did though.

Work has been going pretty good.  I got a free costume from work.  I was a greeter yesterday for our Halloween sale.  It was fun.  I dressed up as a devil.  I have the day off today.  So I am cleaning the closet out and rearranging things so I have more room.  :)

I finally broke 100 for bowling.  I bowled a 113 and then I bowled a 101 and then an 81.  It was awesome.  I just hope I do as good next week when we go again.