I have today off work.  I cried myself to sleep last night and then woke up crying...He won't even talk to me or give me a chance.  I text him and didnt get a word from him...My heart feels like some one riped it out and stabbed it with a knife and threw it away.  I can't eat.  I tried to eat lunch and I just threw it up.  I just dont understand.  I tried to tell him that I was texting him and he didnt want to listen to me at all. :( I love him and want him and I to be together.  I don't want to do anything.  I want to curl up in a ball and just lay there.  I hate being me.  Wish i wasnt even around anymore...