Well out of court. It went ok I guess. I have to go back March 1. Joy! NOT!! I asked if the lawyer was pursuing Matt and he goes that he didn't have to tell me anything. He said he couldn't get a hold of him...More like he isn't even trying. So I am calling my lawyer Monday about that and about the paying the bankruptcy. I want to get my divorce finalized all ready and be done with all this.
I do have to say something though. A lot of times when I say I am ok I really am not ok. I am just trying to get through the day without totally loosing it. I cry like at the weirdest moments and I don't know why I do. I know I have some work to do on myself I just hope that it will show in the long run. I mean I know things are not going to happen over night or anything. I wish they did.
I need to work on thinking I am a bother to everyone I am friends with. I don't like venting as much to people cause I think I am being a bother or a burden to them. And I don't want to be that way. I want to be able to talk to people about how I feel and what I think without worrying that they may think I am stupid, or that I am annoying, or something. I just wish I would have known more about all this before I hurt people. *sigh*
