I'm doing okay...Christmas went very good.  I got a new game for my 3DS, some penguin socks, and some cups and also got penguin slippers.  I think the day went very well...I had the day off today. 

I have to work tomorrow and Thursday.  Then I have the next two days off.  So I think I will end up changing my sheets and doing some house work.  I may end up taking down my Christmas decorations as well...Then again I may leave them up till New Years Day. 

Amber is driving me nuts...She is always trying to get into my business about everything.  It makes me mad.  There are times she says things to people and she thinks she is helping, but she just makes things worse.  I am 30 years old for crying out loud.  If I ask her to leave something alone then she should respect what I want.  However that will never happen since apparently everything revolves around her.

There are a lot of times that I wish that things were different...There is nothing I can really do...I tried so much to change things.  I am not sure what else that I can really do. 

I am working tonight.  Work is going good.  It is going to be crazy for a few more days.  Tonight I am working till midnight.  I just hope that I will still be able to get the hours after Christmas is over.  I am hoping that I will be able to do the shoes department.  That way I will have the hours. 

I am doing okay...Just been busy with work...Most of the time I have either been at work or sleeping it seems like.  I did okay bowling tonight. :)  I really don't have much to say lately...I am just trying to get through work and the holiday season to be honest...

Today was okay...The party for my Mom went really good.  She was really surprised.  :)  I still really miss Mike and wish him and I were talking more...sigh...I am trying to leave him alone so he can think about things and have no pressure from me...I wish I knew what he is thinking about all this...sigh...

Today was ok I guess...My knee hurts some.  But it is raining so I kinda knew that would happen...We are going to my Aunts tomorrow.  I have the next two days off.  So I am happy about that.

I just feel so stupid...I wish things were back to the way it was... :(

Still just not feeling good about all this...I cant make someone want to be with me or be my friend :(

Not sure about everything that is going on...This is really hurting me..  Totally broken hearted now..  I just want to curl up and cry even more...What is wrong with me?  I guess I am a stupid looser after all.  I doubt anyone will ever really want me. :(

I am still crying myself to sleep and i still want to cry during the day...I just dont get it I was trying to listen to what everyone was telling me to do..I was trying to do the right thing...Maybe I am ment to be alone...I feel like a stupid looser... :(