Friday, July 26, 2013

Court today...

Today I had court for my divorce.  Mom and I got there sat down and in comes the ex...  You would think he would sit as far as possible from us right?  Heck no!  He had to sit 3 seats away from Mom...  I mean really?  We got divorced.  Now tell me why in the world would I want to hear about everything that is going on in your life.  Honestly I didn't even want to talk to him. 

So he kept talking and finally my lawyer came out to talk to me about what was going to happen about the whole interest.  So if I don't pay the money I owe him 8% interest will be added each year that it is not paid.  It don't even matter that I can't work for 8 well 7 weeks now.  Then we went in the court room and the judge decreed that i would have 45 days to pay until i will be charged interest.  Then we were done in the court room.  

We had to wait to sign a paper about the interest.  So we went back in the waiting room where he had to sit near us AGAIN, and talk more about his life.  I got so annoyed that I picked up a magazine and tried to read it thinking that he would take the hint.  He didn't take the hint of course and continued talking.  My Mom got so annoyed that she got up and went to the restroom so she wouldn't punch him.  I was good thou.  I tried my best to just ignore him.  When I really just wanted to yell at him to go away, or even hit him, but I knew if I did that I would be in major trouble with Mike.  Now that I really did not want to happen.

So I am FINALLY divorced!!! I am so happy it is all finished!  

In other news...I turned in an application for being a teacher's aid at a Daycare.  Hopefully I get the job.  I am so ready for a change.  I may still have to work at Kmart for a few weeks because of my insurance, but I get the job I will just have to have Kmart adjust what my work hours are and if they don't then I will just quit.  I would rather work at a place that I know I am making a difference then at a place where I am treated horribly.

Mom is doing good.  I really have to rely on her a lot of things right now.  I do wish I was able to do more myself, but that time will come.  It did feel good to be outside though that is for sure!  I am hoping that I will be able to sit on the swing soon, but that will come in time as well.  I just have to be patient.  Which is not my strongest quality about myself and I know that.  So I am trying to be patient about everything, and not get too annoyed.

My pain level has went down a lot.  So that is a good thing.  So now instead of every 5 hours I am taking my medication every 6 hours.  I hope soon that I will only have to take it as needed.  I have to see the doctor next Thursday for my check up.  I hope he will give me good news!  Well I am gonna go watch t.v. for awhile.  I will write more soon!!

Monday, July 22, 2013

How I am doing

I am doing good today.  I still have a lot of pain at times in my knee.  That is to be expected with having surgery just a few days ago.  I am doing okay with the pain medication, however it makes me very sleepy after I take it.  I do say I hate having to sleep so much.  A lot of times I feel like I am missing things going on because of sleeping.  I know it is a way for my body to heal though, and that is why I need the sleep so much.  

When I'm not asleep I spend a lot of time watching my favorite shows on tv.  Of course I am online playing on my Facebook.  Also I try and read some of my books from the library.  I tried to watch some movies from there, but I just couldn't really get into watching them.  I have also been playing my 3DS.  Right now its on the charger since I been playing it so much.

Mom has been really helping me a lot.  Since the bathroom is so small someone has to be in there to help me.  Plus Mom gets my food or me and if I need anything else.  She also keeps track of all my medication and the times I need to take them.  I would forget when to take them if it was up to me.  We keep an alarm on my phone to remind us when I need to take the pain medication so I take it on time, and not miss a dose.  That way I am not always in pain. Dad helps when he can.  Amber helps me when she is awake, but at times she acts like its a bother to help me.  

My best friend Steph sent me a build a bear teddy bear.  She thought it would cheer me up.  It totally made me smile when I got it.  She got it as a late Christmas present and birthday present to me.  She just deiced to send it now to make me smile, and it did.

Mike is still my Top during my healing.  He is keeping track of if I mess up so I will get my punishments later on when I am not on crutches, and in pain.  Which is very nice I think of him to wait.  Also its very thoughtful.  He checks to see how I am doing a couple times during the day.  Mostly to make sure I don't need any thing and that I am doing okay.  I think it is very sweet.  Latte also checks to see how I am doing.  I think she is a great friend and very sweet as well...

Well I am getting a little tired so I am going to take a nap...I will write more later!

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Day 2 from surgery

I had my surgery yesterday.  It went good.  There was no complications.  I still have a lot of pain and I am trying to stay on top of taking my medications on time.  Mom went into Kmart to get me a few things and she talked to A one of the managers, and when she learned I cannot put any weight on my left leg and had to be on crutches she said I may as well not come in till I am off the crutches.  Which is good in a way.  It just means money will be very tight for me for awhile.  So tomorrow I am calling and going to talk to the human resourse department about a leave of absence.  

I have been sleeping off and on.  And when I am not sleeping I am watching tv and playing around on my facebook.  I still don't like being able to do what I normally do, like helping Mom with chores around the house.  Like I would like to go with her to the store, but cause of the pain I can't stand it.  I am so thankful my family is helping me as well as my friends.  I am diffidently lucky that I have people who really care about me and want to see me feeling better.

 Right now I am watching stories about places that are haunted and celebrity ghost stories.  I really like watching these kinds of shows.  I may like reading or watching them, but I don't think I would ever go into a haunted place.  I would probably freak out if I ever saw or heard something.  Mike likes to pick on me about watching Ghost Hunters.  I think it is funny tho.

 I filled out an application to be a teachers aid at a preschool.  Rob's Aunt works there and says I could probably get in.  I think it would be a good job for me.  I am great with kids.  But I am still going to continue putting applications at other places as well.  I don't want to get my hopes up too high and then end up not getting the job.

More later!

Monday, July 15, 2013

Spanking and more!

Today I got a reminder spanking.  More about that later.  I was about to head upstairs to my sister's room to do my spanking since my Dad was around.  He don't know that I have a Top, and to be honest I don't want him to know.  Well my Dad saw that I was getting ready to go upstairs, and I had to quickly hide my bath brush behind my back.  He made a comment about phone sex and I swear my face turned two shades of bright red.  I quickly said nooooooooooo, and then continued to go upstairs.  I received 50 hard swats.  Let me tell you that thing hurts!  I used to be able to handle 50 like no problem, but since I haven't had a Top for the past few months it will take time to get to where I once was.  After the spanking I had to sit on the hard floor.  This makes it hurt more to be honest.  I was not being punished, (Which if you knew how I am you would know that it is AMAZING that I am not in trouble!!!) but it was a reminder to behave during my healing time after my surgery.  Since I will not be spanked a record will be kept of how I behaved and I will receive any punishment spanking after I am better.

I am really trying to be good, and show that I am a good girl...Now don't get me wrong it is hard.  And I am sure I WILL mess up sooner or later!  And when that time comes I am sure I will be sorry and pleading!

Now on to other things.  Today Mom and I did laundry where I accidentally slipped on water that had spilled on the floor.  I am okay!  I have almost everything ready for when I have my surgery on Wednesday!  I still have a few little things to do, and I know I will have to go to bed semi early since I have to be at the hospital at 9:30 sharp!  I already know I am going to be one tired little girl!  But I am hoping I will be able to watch my shows.

I am really thinking of not going back to work at Kmart at all.  I don't like how I am being treated there...And to top it off my hours are being cut to 15 hours!!! How can anyone live off that I have no idea.  They hired like 20 new people and I think that is wrong....I want to have another job before I quit, but we will see what happens after my 2 weeks of being off.  I do know it will be hard to find a job when I have 8 weeks of being on crutches.  But I will find something within the 8 weeks that is for sure! 

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

I am doing pretty good.  Mike is going to Top me again! :)  I am happy he going to be able to Top me again.  He has this way of making me listen to how he wants me to act.  I like the rules he gives me and I really try to follow them.  I don't like getting into trouble.  I rather have someone be proud of me then be disappointed in me.   

I am still getting ready for my surgery.  I go to the doctor tomorrow for pretesting.  Meaning they will do an EKG for my heart.  I have had these test before and did fine during them.  I just don't like being in the doctors office.

Work is going okay.  We are having a contest about enrollment cards.  The winner gets a pizza party which is really cool.  I hope my team wins.  Right now I have 24 enrollments.  So I am really going to try to get people signed up for the cards.  I am happy that I am on A's team and not M's.  More later!

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Surgery...again...and other updates!

Well I found out last week that I have to have surgery...AGAIN!  My cartledge in my knee has a little round hole so its bone against bone.  So I am having surgery on it to try and shrink the hole more.  It already went down an inch since I last had the surgery two years ago.  Yes I am freaked out about going thru all this surgery again and having the tube down my throat, but at least I have my family especially my Mom and my friends to get me thru it.  I will have to be on crutches for 8 weeks ago.  That's two months!!!!When I am at work all I will be able to do is sit on a stool and ring people up.  So not looking forward to that one!

M is back online, and I get to talk and text him again!! I totally missed being able to talk to him about things.  He has become like a major best friend to me.  I know him and I had our ups and downs, but I am so happy him and I are friends!  He always has a way of making me laugh and be able to smile.  Also he has a way of making me listen to what he says!  He is a totally AWESOME person I think!!

Work is going ok.  I don't like the idea of taking a week and a half off of work.  Even though my hours right now really suck I like working there most of the time.  But I think after my 8 weeks of being on crutches I may look into finding a new job where I will have more hours, and possibly actually be able to get raises.  Cause now I am still making 7.25 an hour and that is what I started out when I was first hired.  And with these doctor bills, and having to payback my ex I am gonna need the money.  

Mom is home now.  She went with my Aunts for the week for a vacation.  She needed the time to get away, but I sure missed her.  She missed us as well.  I am glad that she had fun, but I am happy she is back home.  I tried to stay on top of all the dishes and keeping the house clean.  I think I did a pretty good job.  Amb didn't really help as much as I wished she did.  Then again it is Amb...I should be used to it by now.  I just wished she would grow up a little more and be more helpful and do stuff around the house.  It isn't fair to let or expect Mom to do everything around the house.  I try to help as much as possible, and I feel that I should help more, but Mom is always telling me to sit down and rest my knee.

Dang this is a long post for me!!  More later!