Last post of the year.

Happy New Year!! This is my last post for 2014!  Wow! What a year it has been.  I am still single.  No worries though.  I am taking my time to find the right guy for me.  I am being Topped again by Mike.  :)  I have spent more time with my nephews, and will be spending even more time with them next year.  Have had some ups and downs with some family members.  Got a new job that I love.  Met a few new friends. :)   I just hope 2015 is a good year for me as 2014 was.  2015 will be all about doing more for myself since I am always trying to help other people, and I end up missing out on things that I would like to do or to have.

Well now that Christmas is over it is time for me to think of my New Years Resolutions.  One of the things I am going to try doing is taking a box and at the end of each day write something positive that happened to me that day or something that I am thankful for.  Then next New Years Eve I will open the box and read all the little notes. :)  The other resolution I have is to keep loosing weight.  I may think of more later but those are two of mine for now.

I work the next two days.  Then I have two days off.  On New Years Day Mom, a girl from work, and I are going to eat at Hacenda, and then maybe go to Kohls.  Mom has Kohls cash to use and I want to pay a little on my bill.  And look at if there is anything I want.  :)  I love shopping at Kohls.  They have such nice things there, and if you shop on the clearance rack you can find some pretty good deals too.

Christmas went pretty good.  I got two shirts.  Some penguin things and a few books.  I even got a stocking from my Aunt.  It was really nice of her to think of Mom, my sister, and me.  :)  The twins loved what we got them.  They are getting so big.  Mom said something about getting them next month.  I hope we can get them on the days I have off of work so I can spend a lot of time with them.  They are such sweethearts.  I kept getting kisses from them.  

I had to work Christmas Eve.  It was a mad house at work.  Seemed like I never got away from the register.  Hopefully today it will be quiet and I can get all my stuff done.  I don't have another day off till Wednesday.  I like that we have certain holidays off, and shortened hours on some days as well.  It gives me a chance to actually spend time with my family that I never got to spend before. 

I work today and then I have the next three days off.  Crappy check, but upside I get to spend Christmas with my family, and I can get some goodies made for Christmas!  I am feeling so much better.  I still get a little tired at work, but I am still taking it easy.  I have to wrap one more present and I am done with all my Christmas gifts.  Then I will be wrapping the gifts for everyone else since Mom hates to wrap things. :)  I love being able to help my Mom out when she needs it. :)

Well I was sick Wednesday through Friday.  It was not fun I had to call off work for two days.  I feel so much better now.  I actually missed going to work.  I didn't do as much as I normally would.  But today I feel like I will be able to do a little more.  I am trying not to push myself so much as I normally would.  I am trying to rest when I don't have to go to work.  So I have my energy for work.

I can't wait for Christmas!  I am hoping that everyone likes what I got them for Christmas.  :) This is the first year I am really looking forward to Christmas.  :)

I got the next two days off so I am doing some Wrapping of the Christmas presents.  And cleaning and doing laundry.  I am happy I get sometime to get things done.

My brother is back at the house...Meaning him and his girlfriend are fighting again.  He drives me nuts.  He just sits around and does nothing.

I am going Christmas shopping later today since I have the day off.  I am hopping to get a lot of people off my list done today.  I think I will be able to.

Well I ended up working 40 hours last week so that will be a great pay check and this week I have about 38 so that will prolly end up being close to 40 as well so that is good.  My mouth isn't bothering me as much as it was.  So that is also good.  I am going to do more Christmas shopping on Wednesday since I have the day off.  Then Sunday is Mom's birthday.  Not sure what we are going to do yet.  I may take her to lunch or I may just make supper for her.  Not totally sure yet what we will do plus I have to get my phone card that day and then the next week I have to pay the water bill.  So working these extra hours are going to come in handy.  I think next year I am going to start my Christmas shopping a lot earlier.

I am almost done with my Christmas shopping.  Just have a few more things to buy. :) Some of the things has to wait another week because I don't want the candy to melt.  :) 

My wisdom teeth have really been bothering me so on Monday I am going to call a few places to see what they charge and if they would do payments.  I will prolly have to be asleep when they pull it because I am a chicken when it comes to pain and dental work.  I really hate the dentist.  I always have to have headphones and my mp3 player cause of the noise there.

The twins might be coming over today.  I am hoping they come soon because I have to be at work by 2 today.  I would like to be able to spend a little time with them.  

Back to work today.  I am closing so it is going to be a longer night.  I am glad that I can get things done at work.  I hope I get the hours this week so I can make sure I have more money for Christmas.  I got to do the stockings with our names on them at work.  Then I have to finish decorating the store for Christmas.  Plus I will prolly have to majorly stock the store up with soda.  I know M isnt going to do it.  She never does.  She spends all her time on the phone and leaves everything for someone else to do which is ridiculous.

I had today and yesterday off.  I finally got my TV back in my room.  I think I am just going to keep it in there now.  I got it all set up the way I wanted it to be.  Now I just gotta buy my new bookshelf so I can put my old one on my dresser and make room for when I get my new bed.  I am finally taking care of the things that I want and need for once instead of worrying about getting everything for everyone else.  But I am still trying to help others that I know need it as well.

I did adopt a little girl for Christmas.  Her mom and I work together and I know they are hurting even more for cash.  So I got a few things for her and her stocking.  At least this way I know the person the things I buy are going to, and I know it is appreciated.  :)

I still have a lot more Christmas shopping to do, but I will be doing more with my next paycheck.  So I am not using all of one check for presents like I used to do.  I also think that I will start buying gifts a lot earlier so I don't feel rushed. :)

Thanksgiving Dinner

Well I had Thursday off.  I got up when Mom did and prepped the turkey. (I named the turkey Bob.)  I also helped make the stuffing.  It actually came out really good.  Mom even said everything tasted like she made it.  While it was cooking the smoke alarm went off and I go DINNERS DONE!!  Mom started laughing.  I was surprised Dad didn't come out and say well we know A is cooking.  I am always burning things when I cook.  Mostly cause of getting distracted when I am cooking.  It turned out really awesome.  Prolly gonna end up making the turkey again next year.  At least now I know how to do it.

The twins were here and they did very well eating.  They were soooo cute.  Mom and I sat beside them at their little table.  They kept trying to feed us to.  It was so sweet of them.  

I had to work today.  It went pretty good.  I wasn't to busy thankfully.  I am doing my Christmas shopping on Monday.  Well some of my Christmas shopping.  I am gonna try and get at least three people done this week so I don't have to worry about them.  :)

Well back to work today then I am off tomorrow.  I can't wait to get my tax check I am so getting a new phone and a new bed.  My bed now hurts my back to the point it wakes me up.  I want something that I would like.

Today is my sisters birthday.  She is still driving me insane.  I am hoping that she will be chilled out when she comes over here later.  Mom said something about having her help me do the Turkey tomorrow.  Most likely it will just end up falling on me.

I have the next two days off...YAY!! So today Mom and I are going to decorate S and A's apartment for her birthday and for Christmas.  Then tomorrow I am going to be doing the laundry.  Then I work Wensday and then I am off on Thursday for Thanksgiving.  This will be the first Thanksgiving that I actually have off and can spend the day with my family and eat some awesome food.  Granted I am going to be really trying to work off all the calories that I will be eating.  But it is so worth it to be able to be home and be with my family.

Next paycheck I need to pay more on my Kohl's bill so I can be able to get great deals for Christmas presents this year.  For the older boys I am just getting them gift cards since they never really like what I get them in the first place.  This way they can't complain.  I have already started trying to get some Christmas gifts so I am not waiting till the last minute to get all the gifts for everyone and spend all my checks on that and not on the other things I need to get.

I am trying to stay upbeat for this Holiday season.  It is a big help that I don't have to put up with the stuff at Kmart anymore.  So that is good.  I really like working where I am at now.  They actually seem to care about the employees.  I like most of the people I work with as well.  I think on New Years Day since we are closed that H and I might go out to eat or something since we never really get to see each other out of work.  And I think she is a great person and a great friend.

Well I gotta get ready to go!  More later!

I enjoyed having the last two days off, but its back to work today.  I am working till 10 still there are trying to see if it is worth staying open so late is worth it for the company or not.  I have mixed feelings about if we should be open till 9 or 10.  But I do want the manager and the owners want me to.

I got my sisters birthday present yesterday.  I also did a little Christmas shopping I think everyone will like what I am getting them this year.  Mom, A, and I made paper chains to decorate S and A's apartment for her birthday and for Christmas last night.  Then we played Uker and Uno.  It was a lot of fun.  Normally we don't really play much games we only do that on New Year's Eve.  So that was a change.

I worked out at the neighbors today.  She made me a key and hid it so I can go and work out when she is on vacation.  I thought that was very nice of her.

We are now closing at 10 so that means an extra hour on my pay check each day I work.  So that is good with trying to get Christmas presents for my family and a few friends.  Bad thing is that it will be even later that I get home at night.  Oh well at least I am able to get everything done that I need to.

It is so cold here it's not funny.  Winter came early for us.  I wasn't ready for this cold yet even.  I am hoping that it won't be as bad as it was last year.   I am already wanting Spring to be here.

Well it snowed yesterday.  So the ground is all white...UGH!!! I really dislike winter...  It gets way to cold and somehow I always end up falling down because of ice.  At least this year I don't have to work on Thanksgiving or deal with the shoppers at a retail place.  I am sure I will still have to deal with them wanting gas on Black Friday, but it won't be as bad as it used to be.

I guess we are now staying open until ten at night.  Which means it is going to be very slow after 9 till people realize we are open later.  Oh well means more money for me.  So that is good.

Well I am excited about something that will be coming up.  I am getting a new bed.  I am hoping to get a day bed frame, but we will see if that is what I will end up getting.  Also I am getting a new book case because I am running out of room for my books and I read alot.  Most of my books are ones that I read over and over again.  I also am getting a new phone.  The one I have now has a small crack in the screen.  Thankfully I can still see everything on it but its only a matter of time before it totally falls apart on me.  I wanna get a smart phone.

Work is going good.  I been getting out early lately.  Mostly because I run around trying to get everything done.  Mostly so I am not there till 10:30 at night.  Well that will be changing next week.  We will be open till 10 pm.  That is going to take some time to get used to that is for sure.  I am sure I can do it though.  It does mean that I get an extra hour towards my pay check though so that is good.

For Thanksgiving the Owners gave us all gift cards to Walmart.  So I am going to get our things for Thanksgiving Dinner on Sunday.  Money is going to be really tight this week for my parents so I am trying to help out as much as I can.  

Working today.  And I just got done working out at the neighbors house.  I am really tired though.  I haven't been sleeping very well.  Mostly because of the bed I have.  It is fine when I first go to sleep but after about 3 hours my back starts hurting and so does my hips.  

I am so not ready for winter.  It is already getting really\cold out.  I hate the cold.  It always ends up making my knee really sore. 

 But at least I don't have to work around crazyness of black Friday.  I mean I prolly will have to work but it will be nothing compared to having to work it at Kmart.  But I am wondering if N will give me that day off.  Prolly not but oh well...  I need to start my gift shopping very soon.  I don't like waiting till the last minute to get things.  But because D and J won't make a list I will end up just getting what I want to get them.  Then they will hate it.  I don't know why I get them anything in the first place.  They have hated everything my parents A and me have ever gotten them.  They could diffidently do with a lesson on being thankful for what they are given.  Cause other kids their age don't get anything because of poverty or other reasons.  I am sure those kids are thankful.  Oh well they aren't my kids so I am not going to worry about it.  I just hope their Mom steps up more on their behavior.  

Twin time!

So today we are getting the twins for the weekend.  WAHOO!!!  I love having them around.  It is so cool watching them learn words and new things to do.  They can be a handful, but a lot of the times there are just cute and want to be cuddled.  I love my nephews.

So I apologized to the lady She said I was forgiven and then said she would never come to the store again.  So who knows on that one.  But at least I did the grown up thing and apologized.  So now I can move on to other important things that are going on in my life.

A Better Day

Today has been a lot better.  Right now I am watching my cousin.  He and I have been playing the WII off and on since he got here at 8 this morning.  I didn't know he was going to be here so early or I would have went to bed early last night.  But oh well.  If I get tired I will try and take a nap if I need one.  

We are getting the twins this weekend.  Yay!!! I love spending time with them and seeing what new things they have learned.  They are so smart!!! I love how cute they are getting.  They have their moments of being little stinkers that is for sure.  But spending time with them is very important. :) 

I am actually off work Friday and Saturday and then I am opening on Sunday.  It has been so long since I have opened I hope I remember how!!!

Well more later!

Yesterday 11 3 14

So I am back to journaling 3 times a week.  I need to be able to get my feelings and thoughts out instead of holding them in all the time.  

Yesterday was a very hard day for me.  I found out something about a family member that made me scared, angry, disappointed, upset, and pretty much very emotional.  I am not going into what the problem is, but I was went to for help, and I didn't really even understand it.  I feel like I have failed that person.  But I am starting to realize that it wasn't my fault.  At least now they are asking for help.  So that is weighing very hard on my mind.  I care about my family and I seem to always want to take care of the problems.  I know I can't help all the time, but its hard.  I also have to keep remembering that I can't change people.  I can only change myself and my actions.  It is a very hard lesson to learn that is for sure.  

Then I got called into work early.  I was told that I had offended a customer with something I said.  I don't even remember saying what it is said that I had said.  But I was asked to apologize for it, which I will do today before work.  It always seems like things pile on.  I mean like things will be awesome, then all of a sudden everything goes downhill.  And it seems like it is never just one thing.  It is a lot of things all at once.  And it gets very hard to handle everything.  

Some good news is I got 90% on a test that I had to take at work.  So that is awesome.  I think there are a few more test that we all have to take.  Hopefully I will do just as good as those as I did on this one.  The last one I did kinda yucky on.  But at least I am learning.

I still love my job.  There have been a lot of changes this past month and will be having more changes too.  We got the new gas pumps.  Next week we get an overhand or canopy what ever they are calling it.  And we are getting a digital sigh.  I am excited about the new sign.  No more having to climb a ladder to change gas prices which will be very good.

I am supposed to get my knee brace Friday.  I notice I need more support with my knee when I am working, otherwise my knee gives out and there is nothing I can do till I am older and can just get my knee replaced.  Diffidently not looking forward to that.

My sister has a new boyfriend.  He is very nice and kind of a goofball.  Him and A are so much alike that its crazy.  He is like the female version of her.  I don't know yet if that is a good thing or if it is a bad thing.  

Well I need to get somethings done around the house...Just gotta keep moving so I don't dwell on problems....

Update

Well I got a new job at a gas station.  I love working there.  They treat me a lot better then what they did at K-mart that is for sure.  I even got a 25 cent raise after being there for my 90 day probation time.  So that is awesome!!! 

Family is doing pretty good.  We have been getting my nephews a lot lately.  They are such a joy to see, but man do they have energy.  I love spending time with them and watching them learn new things and saying new words. :)  

I don't have a boyfriend at this time.  Maybe that will change later this year who knows.  Right now I am just enjoying my singleness.  If that is even a word.  

I don't have a Top right now either.  Maybe later on I will again.  But right now things are just so busy with my life I am lucky if I have time to even read a book. 

My best friend Steph is coming to visit next month.  Neither one of us can wait.  We always seem to pick up with each other like no time has past.  

Well that is a little update about things going on with me... I will try to write more then what I was.

So work is going okay...I had to work the service desk last night then turn around and work 4 to 8 this morning.  It was crazy that is for sure.  I didn't burn the desk down so that is good...

M and I still haven't talked.  He said it was something to do with my phone, but I can get text and send text to everyone else so I don't know what is going on...  He knows my house number and I even tried to text him using my Mom's phone so the ball is in his court if he feels like talking to me.

I got my hair cut today!  It is short!  I went from having my hair to the middle of my back to up to my chin.  It looks really great though and I like it.  And that is what is most important.  :)  Plus short hair looks more like me.  I just wished I could have sent it to locks of love.  But they won't take it if it has been dyed.  So that sucks.  

Well I will write more later on gonna get some house work done for Mom since she isn't feeling good today.

I guess I am just feeling blah today...M hasnt talked to me in about 2 days now...I prolly did something wrong.  I am always messing up.  I don't even know what I do wrong half the time.  I am to the point I just want to say I give up...

Well I found out I have lost 4 pounds so far!! I am very happy that I am starting to loose weight!  I am really enjoying working out.  I want to try out a class there, but I decided to wait until later on.  So far my knee hasn't been hurting while I work out.  So that is good.  I know once I get the weight off my knee issues will be better as well.

  Mom has browncitus again.  But this time we caught it early.  So she is on meds to help with that.  I am just hoping that she feels better.  I would like her to come work out with me as well.

I will write more later on.  Just wanted it to be a quick update today. 

Working out...

One of the things I have down as a my New Years resolution was for me to loose weight.  Well a few days ago I looked up the different gyms in my area and went and saw what they are all about.  The first one I went to I didn't really like it.  The music was blaring all over the place, and it just seemed to be more expensive to join.  The second one I went to I decided wasn't for me.  It was a personal trainer, so it would be like taking classes from just him, and after being in PE in high school and having the teacher yelling at everyone. I decided the idea of a trainer just wasn't right for me.  I wanted a place to go and work out the way I want to work out.  The last place I went to I really liked.  The fitness center which has all the machines and things is kinda small, but its nice.  They also have different classes like yoga, hip hop dance, zumba, and pilates.  So I may take a class or two later on.  But for now I am just going to use the cardio machines.  I only have to pay 15 dollars a month!  I think that is easy enough for me to pay.  

So I went there today and worked out for about an hour.  I did 18 minutes on the treadmill, 10 minutes on the bike, and then went and tried about 6 or 7 different machines.  I think I did pretty good.  I really had fun working out.  The lady that owns the gym was nice and told me about each machine and showed me how to work them.  I also ended up taking a shower there as well since I actually sweated.  I am going again on Saturday so I can get signed up for the month, and start working out.  I am also going to try and keep track of how much I have lost as well.  I really want to loose 100 pounds before 2015.  So that is a full year to work on it.  Plus I wanna get some new clothes!!!

When I talked to Mike about joining a gym he told me I have to go 3 times a week, or I will be in big trouble...Meaning I will probably be getting spanked.  So I will be going 3 times a week.  He did say that he would be upping how many times I have to go later on.  But for now I have to get used to the 3 days a week and get into having a routine.  :)

I will be sharing more about my weight loss and how working out is going on later on.   

Today and a few other things...

Earlier today my parents car broke down.  So Mom had to use my car to go and pick up my Dad.  So it is back to everyone using my car until my parents car gets fixed.  Hopefully it is nothing expensive.  

I worked like 5 and a half hours today.  It went pretty good.  We finally got the truck in.  It was supposed to be there on Monday, but because of the "little" blizzard we had it didn't come till today.  So I ended up putting things away the whole time.  I got all of electronics and housewares done.  I was working on domestics when we had to stop for the night.  I think I did a pretty good job.  

So I have the next two days off of work.  So I am planning on getting something kinda cleaned out of my closet.  And getting them put away for this summer.  Mom was saying something about having a yard sale this summer.  That will be fun, and it is a great way for us to earn some extra cash and get rid of some things that really need to just be gone.  I like having yard sales.  :)  I really like being able to have extra money so I can save up for some fun things I want.

I am really excited about February.  I am going to see my my best friend S in Ohio.  We are going to see the Titanic exhibit that goes around to different museums.  I am really looking forward to seeing it and to also being able to spend time with S.  We are also celebrating my and her birthday, and Christmas as well.  I already got everything for her.  I am going to get the tickets for me to take the bus there on Monday.  Dad don't want me to drive there.  To be honest I don't want to drive there either.  I think we maybe also going out to eat somewhere while I am there as well.  I'm not sure what all we will be doing yet.  I just know I am glad to be able to have a vacation from my house.  Sometimes it is good to just get away for a few days.  :)

Work is going good.  My hours majorly got cut though.  So I am looking into getting a new job.  I am ready for something new that is for sure.  I am tired of my hours being good one week and the next I only get like 11 hours.  Who can live off of that?  No one!  So I am totally ready to move on to something.  I am hoping that I can work as a teachers aid at a daycare.  I think I would be good working with kids...

My Mom goes in for a scope on Friday.  She has been having a lot of trouble with her stomach.  So we are hoping this scope will find out what is going on.  Mom is very worried about it so I am trying to act like I am not worried too about it.  Hopefully its nothing really serious.  My Mom has been through a lot health wise, and it would be nice if things would clear up for her. 

So today I was working in the shoe department...I notice whenever it is Sunday the lady that normally does the shoe department is always asking for the day off...And it falls on everyone else to have to do the shoe signs for the department.  It is really getting annoying.  I mean I hate working there, but at least I don't make a big deal when I am on the floor trying to get my job done.  She goes on about how unfair everything is.  Its very annoying.  

I am ready for my day off on Monday.  I do know that I have to work a very early shift on Sunday because I have to do the signs....