Life is really sucking right now... :(  I just want to curl in a ball and cry...I feel like I have no one to really talk to...Mike won't speak to me...E isn't answering me...sigh...

My heart just hurts so much...I was trying to do the right thing...and it backfired on me... :(

Very bad day...

Last night we had to take Amber to the Er cause of her feeling sick.  She has a stomach virus.  While we were there I was talking to Mike.  And Mom said her sugar was getting low.  So she told me to text Dad about getting something to eat.  Well Mike yelled at me and told me to go get something for Mom to eat.  I was trying to get Mom's card and she wouldn't let me.  He is mad because I was going to ask Dad if it was okay to spend money when Mom's sugar was low.  Then today he said he wants to take a step back from me and figure out what he wants to do and that he is ashamed of me.  Mom said she was fine she just wanted something to eat.  I feel like a stupid looser right now.  I keep crying.  I don't want to eat anything.  If I try to eat I will just end up throwing it up cause of how I feel.  I am not really hungry either.

I asked Mom and Amber to leave Mike alone and give him time and they totally are ignoring what I asked.  I am just feeling more and more depressed.  :(

Work went ok.  I am off tomorrow so I am sleeping in and then I go bowling later on.  I will prolly end up sucking like always...

Well I worked 3 am till 8 am then I took a nap.  And then I went to Danny's for a late thanksgiving dinner.  It was really good.  Andrea did an awesome job making everything and so did Danny.  And tomorrow I have the day off.  I am going to have a lot of fun not doing anything, but sleeping lots!  I need to catch up on all the sleep that I missed this past week...

Well I made it thru working 6 to 3...Just gotta make it thru the 2 30 to 11 30 shift...Totally tired and just want to go back to sleep...We are supposed to have an hour lunch if we work over 9 hours and we are also supposed to have two 15 min breaks....Some people only got a half hour and no breaks at all...It was insane last night...And it is prolly going to be insane today...I am so ready for Monday when I have the day off.

Danny was nice and told me I could sleep in his room since it is quite up there and darker.  His bed is soo uncomfortable.  I definitely appreciate my bed so much more.  And it was cold up there. So tonight I am sooo sleeping in my room.  

Mom is making me brownies to take for work tonight for our carry in.  She is so nice.  I just don't want to even try standing and making them.  My luck I would mess up the ingredients.  I have such an awesome Mom...

I'm off from work today.  This week is going to be crazy.  I am working about a 38 hour week,  Gotta love Black Friday!  I am hoping that things will go smoothly and we do really good with everything.  I worked last night.  I mostly worked the floor and also worked the service desk.  I really like working the service desk.  I love being able to learn more things. 

So today I am just relaxing and not doing anything, but maybe a few things around the house.    So right now I am watching old episodes of Charmed, and I am also playing around on my facebook.  So just been relaxing. :)

Worked 5 to close tonight.  It went pretty good.  I had to train a new guy.  It went pretty good I think.  Also I was trying to make sure this new girl was able to do register as well.  She did pretty good too.  I can't wait for Thursday.  I have the day off and I bowl tomorrow as well.

I just hope I do better bowling then what I have been.

When I was on my way home I saw two deer.  I swear they are on the look  out for me.  LOL!  

I worked 4 am till till 8 am it went pretty good.  I am still coughing and my voice is still all messed up...I am hoping that I will get better soon...I feel totally fine other then the coughing...

I have to work tomorrow 11 to 5.  I hope I am not on the register...

Had the day off today.  I had to go into work for the Christmas meeting though.  It was only an hour long though.  We just found out that the hours are just going to be insane for Thursday and Friday.  I just hope that we do good with sales, and nothing crazy happens.  Last year there was a fight at Wal-Mart.  Thankfully we didn't have any fights over merchandise.  Which is really good.  I am still refusing to shop on that day.  That is totally for sure.  There is way too many people out shopping and it is way to crowded.  Also people's tempers are really high.

I went bowling today.  I totally had an off night.  I bowled an 87, 74, and a 69.  I know I can do better then that.  I just really have to work on a few things.  I need to concentrate more about what I am doing, and work on being focused and not turning my hand like I do.  And making sure I walk straight and not go all over the place.

I am working tomorrow.  I have been training new people.  They are doing really good.  I like training someone and showing them how to do things.  There are times that I want to take over for people.  I just need to be patient and let them do things and let them figure out how to do stuff, and not jump in and try to take over for them.  If I do that they will never learn. 

Finally feeling a lot more like myself...I am still coughing but not like I was.  I have tomorrow off but I have to go in for an hour meeting which sucks...But what can I do about it?

I am still sick unfortunately.  I am still coughing and my voice comes and goes.  I just hope that I get better fast.  I really hate being sick.

I worked 4 to 8 am today...I hate going to bed early but I liked that I had the whole day to do whatever I want to do.

Still sick...So tired of sleeping all the time and trying to get better...sigh